I truly had the most relaxing weekend that I had in months. And it did not take an out of town trip to get my mind back on track. Actually, am not sure if it is in track but I'm happy that I spent the weekend just chillaxing, sleeping and not having work hound me.
I also have a new oppa who inspires me--Ha Seok Jin. Unfortunately, it's difficult to find his merchandise as he's not as well known as the other oppas out there. Whenever I search for his name in Shopee, Jin's BTS keeps on popping up. Come to think of it, I also tried looking for his merch when I was in SK at the request of Mayeth but was not successful. It's ok though. I don't have to share him with lots of people. He's the only actor who I included in my Google alerts and even turned on my IG and Youtube notifs for him. I never did that to anyone even during my ALDUB fangirling days. I must have had it bad. Now if I could learn Korean fast enough so I can watch his YT videos without waiting for the English translation. It's really so frustrating. I really can't be self taught even if I have all these books to teach me.
Learning a language is a two-way thing. I have to practice it out but that's what I'm missing--a constant language companion. Same as how I contracted an American accent when I was in the US. My learning has always been auditory. So hard to adjust.
It's Friday and for the first time in a long line of Fridays, I just don't want to do anything today.
For the past few months, Friday was panic day as I'll be cramming to finish so many tasks during the day. Most of what I do is dependent on other units and considering the urgency, some of them might be postponing some of the deliverables until the next week. So I would bug them during the day to ensure they submit my requirements.
I woke up with no electricity earlier because of a lightning strike on one of the posts inside our village. Fortunately, it was restored a couple of hours later. However, I started developing hives from I don't know what. I haven't taken any anti-allergy yet but will do so inawhile. I try not to take the strong stuff as I don't like the groggy feeling afterwards.
I haven't done my morning walks for 4 days now. I can't understand where the laziness is coming from. I just want to sleep and sleep. I just want to relax nowadays but I can't afford to let my guard down. Surprises often happen in my line of work so I have to be on my toes when such incidents occur.
Anyway, happy Friday to all of us! This would probably be by most relaxing weekend in a long long while.
Our audit is officially over. I could breathe a sigh of relief. I just want to take a deep breath and let it all out. I can't believe I survived it.
It's my first time coordinating everything maybe that's why it was so harrowing. All the worrying and lack of sleep paid off though as I've been getting compliments from my peers.
I definitely learned a lot from this. There's also so many things to do and we'll surely get there.
For now, I'm hoping to get my first restful sleep in months.
I'm feeling unsettled the past few weeks. I'm not sure where I want to go or what I want to do. The stress that I went through recently was an eye-opener and gave me a new perspective on things.
One thing's for sure, WFH is not good for stress management. It gives you a feeling of loneliness that is usually not present when you're physically working with peers. Before, whenever I'm stressed, I would just walk it off or go to an officemate's cubicle and shoot the breeze. Nowadays, I just have to give a big sigh and bear it. Definitely not healthy.
I can't wait for this thing to be over.
Up to now, I'm amazed how I was able to survive the stress for the past 4-5 months. It's hard to talk about it due to confidentiality reasons but for most of those months, I felt like I carried such a great burden. I had to make people comply and get the reports that are being requested by the auditing body. There were days that I just wanted to quit but I held on and guided everyone up to the best of my abilities.
And I think we did well. Surprisingly well considering that it was my first major audit and half of the time, I had no idea what I was doing. I survived by asking around and getting around my shyness with people. If I needed something, I just reached out to the person in charge regardless of the person's rank.
I received a lot of compliments and thanks for a job well done. What made it meaningful was it did not come only from my supervisor but from my peers as well and which added to my sense of accomplishment. Previously, I felt like it was my ex-boss that only believed in me. Sadly, he encouraged me while he was in another company but it felt great. It only had to take one person to believe in me and I just handled the rest. He has always told me that I could do it.
I really do miss my old boss. I'm not saying that I do not like my new boss. She's just as awesome. But nothing would replace the working relationship I had with my previous boss. I just wish we'll have a chance to work together again.