Stressed

It has been quite some time since I was *THIS* stressed. I was hyperventilating this morning as the problems and issues kept on coming one after the other. I'm not sure why I'm like this when I usually just laugh such issues off. 

I'm starting to worry as it's beginning to affect my health already. I'm not sure if it's because of this WFH set-up or I'm lost my support system but I feel really vulnerable. Adding to my stress stew is my son who has some sort of eczema appearing all over his body. Its starting to worry me already. 

I diffused VALOR Essential Oil and smeared some drops of BELIEVE on my head and pulse points. Amazingly, it calmed me down and restored my optimistic outlook. I can't believe I was in such a dark place earlier. It was scary. 

I can go back to believing that we can overcome this and that this too shall pass.

All Apologies

I must really need a break. Noticed that the first emails that I sent this morning started off with apologies  when there's no reason for me to apologize. 

Moreover, I had to take a deep breath everytime I open my emails in the morning. 

There must be a better way for me to deal with all the stress.

Here We Go Again

Seven years ago, I posted something in my blog  about work-related stuff that I was struggling with. It came to the point that I couldn't sleep because it was bothering me so much. I'm sad to say that the feeling is back, although I can still sleep at night. Nevertheless, the feeling of being unsettled is there.

The circumstances are different 7 years ago compared to now but I still can't help but feel apprehensive. Back then, my health was taking such a beating that I had difficulty breathing and I had to take a long leave just to get myself back together. Hopefully, I'm more equipped now to handle the stress.

If worse comes to worse, I can just quit.I don't deserve the stress.

Full Plate

It has been a very busy week. I think this was the busiest that I've been in the last two years that I've been with my current employer. Scrap that. I was very busy when I started as I learned the ropes. It soon normalized 6 months down the road that I found myself getting bored. I guess I got what I wished for.

I have 4 projects in the pipeline that is taking so much of my time. The first two projects entail talking to vendors while the last 2 is internal but requires a lot of meetings and running after people for their submissions. This is on top of my BAUs. I'm now relying on my team leaders more than ever as they have to handle the department while I'm going around the bank chasing papers. I hope that this are portents of good things to come.

This is on top of my teaching and being a mom to a 5 year old rambunctious boy. Sometimes, I wonder what I got myself into.

Charge!

I'm still cringing whenever I read my previous post. I remember when I was drafting it yesterday, I wanted to slam my laptop screen but I don't think my husband would appreciate me ruining his Christmas gift. :) Since nobody reads my blog anyway, I opted to post it and will just edit it again when I have the time.

I blame my poor writing skills last night to a very draining and tiring day. I was at a telecon with an foreign vendor for 3 hours straight and I was the translator of the group. Though everyone speaks English, my colleagues wants me to translate for them (funny. Communicator is not one of my 5 top strengths). We were going through more than 60 pages of documents and it's so difficult to explain what we wanted to happen due to the language barrier. I can't help but wonder how I survived this when I used to work in a foreign bank before. Back then, I would converse with my expat bosses and even our international counterparts without too much effort. I guess I must be out of practice.

Today was no different. I started the day literally running (I was printing confidential documents so everytime I would print one file, I would run to the printer and pick it up before anyone else can get it) and was only able to pause for a breath at lunch time. My friend and I decided to go to Market! Market! for lunch to de-stress. However, when I got back, I had to chase my boss as I needed his input for a meeting that I attended in Makati this afternoon. Then, I had to go back to the office after the meeting which ended around 6PM as I had to send out a report that was due today. I was only able to leave the office almost 8PM and would only sigh when I saw the traffic at SLEX. Now here I am, writing this blog post and procrastinating when I should be doing my midterms for my class this Saturday.

I have to prepare myself for tomorrow as I foresee another tough day ahead. I will again have another meeting the WHOLE day with another vendor. I can't recall being this busy and this stressed since I joined the company. I hope these are signs of good things ahead.

When the Stress Comes

I woke up 430 this morning trying to sort a work related problem out in my mind. It does not help that I've been really tired for the past couple of days and waking up this early in the morning does not help.

I really need to learn to turn my mind off about work once I enter the door of our house/room. I guess it has become a habit for me to bring the work home that I'm barely getting rest worrying. Good thing it's a Saturday today at least I can catch up on my sleep later on.

2010 is such a looooooong way to go. :(