New Beginnings

Taken from weheartit.com

After 9 years and 7 months with my company, I finally tendered my resignation and will stay for 30 days to do my turnover. 

My husband actually took an issue why I should take 30 days when I have all those vacation leaves available. There are just so many things to do that I need to either finish or turnover to the next person who will take over my responsibilities.

It was really difficult at first. I mulled it over for several weeks and months until I finally decided to take the plunge. I couldn't sleep the previous day that I scheduled the talk with my manager and afterwards, I felt like I could breathe. 

It won't be a big change as I'll be in the same industry industries and I'll be working with my previous boss whom I really got along well with. Together we'll get to accomplish so many things. He'll be the brains, I'll be the hands and feet. 

My leaving won't be as bittersweet even if I spent almost a decade with this company. The pandemic somehow dulled the memories as I haven't seen my colleagues for almost two years now. If ever we were at work, my resignation won't be as easy. 

So excited to start this new chapter of my journey. 
 

Out of Sorts

I've been out of sorts the past weeks. I've taken to walking 2-3x/ a week. However, I realized I should take more precautions now due to the weather. 

In the past, I usually wear dri-fit clothes when I go out at 530 or 6 in the morning. Lately, I have to factor in the early morning weather which is quite cool but unfortunately, is not good for sweating people. 

For the past couple of weeks, I've always wondered why I fall sick the day after I go walking. It seems that my shirt was too thin and my sweat would dry out in the cold morning air. As what we say in the local language, nahamugan. I never believed in it until I experienced it. I was disappointed in myself for being so sensitive. Or maybe it comes with the age. 

So if I'm better tomorrow, will walk wearing a sweater on top of my shirt. Hopefully, it'll stave off any ailments. 

Crossroads

I'm faced with a crossroads once again. 

Taking the first step is always the hardest and all the cliches that comes with it. 

I can do this. Wish me luck!

Assertive Defender - ISFJ-A

I took this personality test to know my profile and I laughed when I saw it. 

Work-wise, I now know why I was chosen to take my current job role and why I excelled in it. 

It was the Sentinel Role that really amused me. My current job is somewhat like audit and compliance and considered the 2nd line of defense of our company. Considering that I'm an assertive defender, I think I really have found my calling.

I got a kick out of this paragraph though:

In all of their relationships, Sentinels want to make contributions. This attitude informs how they treat not only their nearest and dearest but also their acquaintances, neighbors, and coworkers. These aren’t the personality types who neglect their responsibilities or leave the office kitchen a mess – in fact, they’re often the types who quietly clean up other people’s messes, both literal and metaphorical.

I do this often--cleaning up other people's messes. It's a job that I actually enjoy and find a sense of accomplishment when I managed to have it done. And this one is true as well.

Of course, Sentinels wouldn’t mind being recognized for the ways they help others, but these personalities rarely demand attention. Instead, they work behind the scenes to make everyone’s lives run as smoothly as possible, even if that means taking on unglamorous tasks like remembering to buy toilet paper or handling their family’s income taxes. They may not be obvious with their feelings, but Sentinels do care and care deeply – you just have to know how to spot it.

Maybe that's why I have always been taken for granted. 

Korean Lessons - Day 2

Last week, I restarted my pursuit in learning Korean. I joined a language class and have greatly improved to where I was from last year. I've gotten better in writing and reading Hangeul. My vocabulary leaves much to be desired though but I learned a new technique which would hopefully help me in memorization.

Another struggle is learning how to construct sentences. I learned English grammar by reading books, that's why I sucked during grammar class as I had no idea what the rules were. The way I practice it is that as long as it sounds and looks good, it should be fine.

Realizing now how important that is as I'm struggling with subject, object and verbs which is vital in Korean sentence construction. It's so I can properly use the particles which would mark each work. I just spent 2 hours doing a 5 sentence assignment. Hopefully, that will improve in the next few months.

화이팅!

Korean Lessons

I started taking Korean lessons a couple of years ago at a place somewhere in Pasig. I would drive every Saturday, together with my neighbor, so we could attend free classes together with almost a hundred other students.

I found it difficult at first as my classmates had some knowledge of the language while I had nil. I struggled to catch up and my ahjumma brain could not cope. I ended up flunking the course which affected my confidence.

I studied by myself and practiced writing the alphabet and tried to teach myself a few words. Of course, I picked up some expressions from the kdramas and kvariety shows that I watch. 

But I decided to pick it up again and took a course in conversational Korean at the Verb Hive. Fortunately, I'm already familiar with the language so it's a matter of sentence construction and putting together the correct words. My pronunciation sucks though. The polite and informal language makes it more confusing but I'm slowly getting there. 

I had my first class last weekend and I was happily surprised that our 선셍님 (seonsangnim - teacher) looks like Seungri of Big Bang. This time around, I was able to follow the teacher and slowly put construct (hopefully) palatable sentences. The assignments were also fun though it's really taking so much of my time. Might as well as there's no Korean dramas to watch. 

Fighting!

Decluttering

I've always had difficulty controlling my mess. I try my best to organize stuff but I just end up relocating my clutter. 

For the past several days, I've made it a point to start throwing away stuff. I made it a goal to fill up my trash can and I've been doing so since Thursday. That's only the cabinets on beside my work station. I have to work my away throughout the room to make sure I get through stuff. And I have to also check out the boxes that are outside our room. 

So far, I've thrown away knick knacks that I haven't seen or used the past 20 years. Some of them are just dust gatherers and which I'm keeping for nostalgia's sake.

Nostalgia is a tricky thing. I look at them, reminisce for a few minutes then put them back. Am thinking how I can immortalize them without keeping them. Maybe take pictures and keep them digitally? Let's see though. I'm getting the hang of throwing away stuff. Problem is, I'm replacing them with more stuff that I buy online. It's a ruthless cycle which I don't know how will end.