First Week

As expected, my first week at my new job was information overload. I had to unlearn all the jargon I knew and learn new ones. I had to familiarize myself with processes and people. 

I also had a short talk with my boss earlier and I realized that I've been given a daunting task. Hopefully, I'll be able to deliver. He thinks he can so I'll hold on to that belief that I can. All it takes is just one person to believe in me.

What I do involves a lot of research and readings--one that I know I'm good at. Hopefully, I'll still be fit in the role even if my experience was in the back-end. 

I'm also intimidated by the other executives reporting to my boss. This is the largest I've seen him handle but I believe he'll be able to do it. Hopefully, so can I. 

Constant Change

The past few weeks have been hectic.

I tendered my resignation last September 17 and had my last day on October 15. I started my new job yesterday, October 18. Not to mention, tending to bread and kimchi orders. I haven't had time to sit down and rest or even watch my kdramas.

I have been with the bank for 9 years and 7 months. I guess 9 is the magic number because even in my previous job, I also resigned at 9 years. 

One thing I learned in my despedidas was that I never realized how important I was until I left. The accolades just came one after the other yet I never felt them when I was holding that position. 

I'm excited about this new role as it's different from I do. Hopefully, I'll be able to delivery expectations to think it took more than 6 months until I was able to transition. I'm not that nervous as I trust my line manager enough that he'll guide me to do the correct and right things. Hopefully, it will translate well. 

And It Starts

The -ber months have always been horribly busy for me and being in lockdown--well, Alert Level 4--does not exempt me from that.

Last year, I have taken to baking breads and eventually selling them which kept me busy until December. This year, I added kimchi to my menu and it helped boost up the sales. However, I'm also learning Korean on top of transitioning to my new job which added to the stress. I should be doing my homework now but I'm beginning to believe that learning a new language at my age can be quite a deterrent. I can't keep up with my classmates and I struggle in forming sentences. I mean, I can understand but replying to a question can take me minutes to form a single sentence. 

But then, I realized that everything is just a mind game. I kept on putting myself down in my socmed page which somehow added to the belief that I'm no good. 

I had the same experience in high school when I always thought that I'm horrible in Math. We had a tutor who taught us that it's actually easy and when I got the concepts, I had a grand time. 

So I guess I just have to convince myself that I can actually do this.