A New Year

The last two years felt like a dream…or a nightmare probably? Who knew that it would only take an unseen enemy to change our life the way it did the past couple of years.

COVID is our new enemy and unfortunately, it’s something that we can’t win against. We learn to eventually live with it and accept the new normal. Fortunately, our whole household, except for my 4 year old, was vaccinated against it when it hit our house. Symptoms were not as moderate as what we would hear in the news. I’m not saying that what’s happening outside is not true—it’s just proof that vaccines work and we were protected against anything severe.

January is only two weeks in yet it feels like it’s been going on forever. Not only did I had to deal with matters at home (my son’s yaya was the first victim so I had to take care of him and cook meals while attending a meeting), but I also have to deal with work deadlines. Much as I would want to take a rest, expectations are high as I recently joined my new company. Though I don’t normally care what people think of me, but I did not want to make my boss lose face in front of his peers considering he fought for my hiring and even created the position for me. I have a big project that will launch next week and I’m hoping that it would further solidify my boss’ decision to hire me. 

I had a moment last week wherein I almost broke down. I was so stressed at work, then I had to take care of my son and clean and cook. It was lunch time that I realiced that I haven’t taken a bath or even had coffee. Now I know why moms are so harried. I always thought that I’ll be calm and composed but this was different. It made me look at stay-at-home moms in a new light and even if I’m not going to have kids anymore, I don’t think it’s something that I will be good at. 

Here’s hoping and praying that this year will be better for all of us.

Happy New Year, world!

What To Do This 2021

I haven't made resolutions for the longest time as I rarely meet my own expectations but after 2020, I think it's time I set goals for myself.

First of all, I seriously want to pursue my Korean language lessons. I already have the books and everything but I'm just too lazy to do so on my own--especially when I hit a difficult portion. I guess my learning style is that I need someone to teach me vs teaching myself. More often than not, I get stuck at the particles and markers that I end up quitting. To think I bought some Korean children books as well so I can practice reading grade school level books. 

Last night, while waiting for the New Year, I watched the KBS Drama Awards live. I had a difficult time figuring things out as I was using context clues and I had to slowly read the captions. Took time for me to read Deurama as Drama. Next year, I hope to be able to watch the live streams without struggling. 

Next, hopefully, we can travel this year as I really need to visit my mom and sister in the US. Too many things have happened there especially with my sister being diagnosed with breast cancer and my mom and stepdad contracting COVID. I want to see and hug them both.

Third, I'm seriously considering continuing my bakery business. Will be doing some changes in my line-up next year. I'll certainly retain my Korean breads but might change the others. Or will be offering them at different dates. I haven't really thought about it but will definitely refine my operations. 

Fourth, be more patient with my kids. I want to develop my relationship with my eldest child who will turn 12 later this month. I can't believe I have a teenager already and I'm already having problems relating with him. He's always cranky (he takes after his dad) and I miss the sweet boy that he was before. 

Fifth, watch at least 50 Kdramas this year. I usually don't set a target but this year, I want to achieve that. 

Hwaiting!