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One can get hypnotized by Gong Yoo's voice especially when he reads poetry. He did a lot of this in his drama, Goblin / Guardian: The Lonely and Great God. 

During a variety show appearance, a clip was showed wherein he read the above poem's Korean translation. Even though it was not the original language, I was teary-eyed at the end. 

Blooper

I made an office related blooper earlier. It was a mistake made in front of numerous people and up to now, I can't shake it off. I know there are others who have it worse but nevertheless, I can't help but feel incompetent. 

Sometimes, I wonder if I'm really fit for the job. Maybe I should do something else. Maybe I should take my mom's offer already. 

My confidence and self-esteem really took a blow today. I know I'll be able to shake it off soon. Will just be miserable for awhile. Not even my Kpop and Kdrama can get me off my slump.  

Stickers!

I've owned several laptops in my lifetime but this is the first time that I decorated one with stickers. 

I was inspired by Nam Do San of Start-up. His laptop was peppered with different stickers which somehow gave character to his machine. Though I know I won't have this computer forever, it still gives me joy when I look at it. 

It's a snapshot of stuff that I like--a mixture of Korean, Japanese and British pop culture. 

There's numerous KDrama and Kpop references--Start-up, Hospital Playlist, It's Okay not to be Okay, Crash Landing on You, Weightlifting Fairy. Park Seo Jun and his What's Wrong with Secretary Kim character, Kim Seon Ho and of course, Big Bang.

Sherlock is in there too and some Japanese anime characters. 

I wonder what else I should decorate. I still have lots of stickers left over. 

Park Bo Gum - 2018

My husband and I went on a JUNK trip to Seoul, South Korea. It was also the same year that I got addicted to Kdrama and he suggested that we visit Seoul.

I'll make another post about our trip but I need to tell the story first about this picture.

We were walking around out of the malls around Dongdaemun when we decided to ride one of the elevators at Doota Mall. When the doors opened, this life-sized picture of Park Bo-gum greeted me. 

I just grabbed onto my husband and held back a scream. I really thought it was him! It's just his image that's stuck on the elevator windows. 

Suffice to say, it was a very eventful ride going up. 

 

When My Asthma Attacks

 

After being dormant for the past 6 months, ay asthma decided to resurface last week. Since I had no idea if my meds were still updated, I scheduled an appointment with my pulmo. I was prescribed a bevy of drugs which would hopefully control the attacks. 

I thought I outgrew this but the allergies came out full force during my second pregnancy, including my asthma. Not only did I have to see my OB and my endo but my pulmo as well. It's frustrating that my body became sensitive to stuff which I usually ignore--like dust and my favorite food--mangoes. Either would trigger a round of coughing and wheezing. 

There's also the matter of cost. The above meds cost me around P7+K. I have to nebulize two types of meds and one of them costs P200 each! And I have to nebulize 3x/day. Out of all of these, it's the Zykast I hate the most as it makes me groggy the next day (side effect of antihistamines).

I've tried essential oils but I can't seem to find the right mix yet. Maybe one of these days, I'll find one that will be able to control the attacks. 

Awful Week

It has been an awful week. I've had worse but this is just one of those weeks that makes me crave for alcohol. 

I hate arguing and being at odds with other people. I almost ended the day with a negative thought about a co-worker. But I knew I wouldn't be able to enjoy my weekend with having that hanging over my head. So I read her message and wrote back a consolatory note. I acknowledged her message and apologized as we can't do what they've asked. I could've argued further but I ended it by wishing her a happy weekend and for us to rest. We can continue our argument on Monday.

In the meantime, my kdramas are waiting for me. 

Oh, and my asthma is also acting up. I've forgotten that February is that start of asthma season. I managed to snare a teleconsult schedule with my pulmo. She managed my asthma before when I was pregnant and hopefully, I can live with this without too much suffering the coming months. Something in our room is triggering my allergies. Funny though that I haven't suffered an attack from the months of July to January but it's now starting all over again. Six months of bliss versus six months of hell. Quite a cycle but then, we can't always have good things happen to us.

 

What To Do This 2021

I haven't made resolutions for the longest time as I rarely meet my own expectations but after 2020, I think it's time I set goals for myself.

First of all, I seriously want to pursue my Korean language lessons. I already have the books and everything but I'm just too lazy to do so on my own--especially when I hit a difficult portion. I guess my learning style is that I need someone to teach me vs teaching myself. More often than not, I get stuck at the particles and markers that I end up quitting. To think I bought some Korean children books as well so I can practice reading grade school level books. 

Last night, while waiting for the New Year, I watched the KBS Drama Awards live. I had a difficult time figuring things out as I was using context clues and I had to slowly read the captions. Took time for me to read Deurama as Drama. Next year, I hope to be able to watch the live streams without struggling. 

Next, hopefully, we can travel this year as I really need to visit my mom and sister in the US. Too many things have happened there especially with my sister being diagnosed with breast cancer and my mom and stepdad contracting COVID. I want to see and hug them both.

Third, I'm seriously considering continuing my bakery business. Will be doing some changes in my line-up next year. I'll certainly retain my Korean breads but might change the others. Or will be offering them at different dates. I haven't really thought about it but will definitely refine my operations. 

Fourth, be more patient with my kids. I want to develop my relationship with my eldest child who will turn 12 later this month. I can't believe I have a teenager already and I'm already having problems relating with him. He's always cranky (he takes after his dad) and I miss the sweet boy that he was before. 

Fifth, watch at least 50 Kdramas this year. I usually don't set a target but this year, I want to achieve that. 

Hwaiting!