How?

I used to be a prolific writer. I could write sentences and come up with plausible stories in just a whim. Am not sure how this skill disappeared or depreciated during time. 

I look back at my old blog posts and I would write so much then. Nowadays, I would find it a struggle to even come up with the proper words.

This pandemic has put a toll on everyone, me not excluded. I thought that I was a homebody but I'm now rethinking that. The only reason then why I prefer to stay at home was to take a break from life. But now that I'm always home, how do I take a break from life? 

At least I do not have to worry about the incessant Metro Manila traffic now. I remember waking up in the morning and worrying what route to take to avoid traffic. I've been waking up since mid-March without that in my mind now. However, work is now mostly in my mind which bothers me. How do you now escape when work is at home?

I'm turning 45 in a few months. Should I look forward to it? I'm not scared of getting old. The only thing that bothers me is the reality of facing menopause. I had a taste of it last month and let's just say, I don't want to go through that again. I woke up that morning feeling heavy and depressed and after talking to a friend, I started crying. When my period came that afternoon, I felt lighter and happier. I mean, I have periods every month but the last episode was definitely different.

I just want this year to be over even if it's memorable.